what to write?

昨天我家的電錶起火。。嚇壞我媽媽了
其實我真的還不知道是電線短路還是什麼。。
就在睡覺的時候，無端端聽到很急的一陣門鈴聲
有一陣很強的燒焦味
過後就听到我媽媽叫我快點出去
怕爆炸==
我起身後就打算抱susu和chucky出去了
哪裡知道那個傻婆chucky以為我跟他玩
躲去床底了
抱susu出去以後，家裡整個黑了下來
沒燈了
我再上樓上一次要拿重要的文件下來
到樓梯口的時候
看到女兒chucky用很可憐的聲音要我抱她下來
我拿了東西，就抱了他下來
邊走邊罵他，早早說了不是玩玩，要包他下來他有不要走，燒死就知道
過後出來的時候看看
火勢不會說很大，特不會說很小
就是怕他爆炸而已，因為是電線短路。。。
真是虛驚一場

今天在fb post 了一個status
想說
i am not a photographer or model~i am just a normal girl who love shooting and photography``=)
最近很多人被拿著dslr的人拍照了以後
就以為自己的身價很高那樣
我想說的是
不一定拿著dslr的就是攝影師
不一定夠高或者被人拍過就是模特兒
請搞清楚狀況

happy =)

i feel stress for the trial exam after this holiday
its a bad thing for me actually
my holiday is full with homework and revision
i don't have any shopping on this holiday~
that's too bad for me
the trial exam spoil my holiday mood~
the chemistry,Lk and add maths is killing me
gonna R.I.P already...

Just finish revision for sejarah f4 with my hubby
as i know he dun like sejarah at all
and of course me too
bt i force to read it and do revision for it,bcz of SPM is coming
and trial exam is around the corner
really thankiewwww hubby
although very tired back from work but he also do revision with me
i really feel so warm and touch
this is the sweetest thing ever in this month!!!
thankiew mr.yong~!I LOVE YOU

oh ya~and happy 1 and a half year for us~550 days

♥

♥

♥

♥

我不開心=（

為什麼每次想要的都會遇上挫折
為什麼每次暴風雨的來臨都是平靜的
我到底哪裡做錯了
我到底得罪了天什麼
要這樣來玩弄我。。。

每次給了我希望
到後來還是失望，還是傷心
為什麼每次給的承諾都做不到
為什麼每次都要傷我的心

為什麼每次我說服我自己說你不是在騙我的時候
事實又一次又一次的摧毀
為什麼....
我討厭你
更討厭我自己那麼傻

我想說的話

我知道最近都沒有回來寫部落格了
對不起我的博客門
其實真的有很多東西很想寫。。
也很多東西想跟你們分享
可是我知道我的部落格有些‘對號入座’的人在看
所以，還是不是很想給人知道我的私隱
這幾個月發生了很多事
開心的很多
不開心的也有
ashley跟yyu好回了
雖然跟以前有點點不同，可是我們還是像以前那樣禮拜出來喝茶

距離spm的日子越來越近了
壓力不是說沒有
可是就是有種感覺。。。
不祥的預感

慢慢的就到了畢業的日子。。。
心裡很不開心
我不捨得你們
不捨得我這班同班了兩年的好朋友
還有同班了5年的那3個
雖然我們不常一起出街
雖然我們常常鬥嘴
可是我知道你們都是很支持我的
很開心看到濤和聰會在我不開心的時候支持我
很開心有一班很好的同學在我遇到困難的時候幫我想辦法
我知道要有一班好的同學是不容易的
慶幸的是，我有你們，我們班有感情那麼好的3大種族
在830的時候感觸真的很多
知道大家再也不會有一天穿著不同種族的衣服在學校拍照
知道我們過了這幾個月再也不會有一起在班睡覺的日子
知道我們再也不會有一天一起在班上談心事的日子。。。
我知道有時我脾氣很暴躁
謝謝你們包容我
我知道有時我說女生的事情你們不是很願意聽
但是還是謝謝你們借個耳朵給我。。。
雖然多麼的不舍還是要面臨分開的日子

我們畢業以後都還是一樣的好朋友
有什麼不開心一定要告訴我
有什麼困難我幫到的一定會幫助你們的
大家別忘了得空的時候出來喝下茶

希望你們spm可以得到你們想要的成績
知道你們一定可以的！加油！

凸
once for u again bitch!
u thought who are you
what am i doing and what am i eating also need u to comment about it?
i write my feeling on facebook is
because i wanna write my feelings out,my opinion,my view and my thinking!
what is your problem actually?
there is nothing to do with u with my attitude!
if u think i am rude enough
if u think i am lazy enough
if u think i am ugly enough
i am rude than u
i am lazy than u
but i dun think i ugly than u ok!
i admit 1st
i am yes the very fucking rude
i talk like a boy,i can speak rude word better than ur nenek moyang
my attitude like a guy, but i am not proud of it
that is my attitude,and that is my habit and i do watever i like!
i no need ur comment
and u're nt worthly to say tat i am the shame of christianity
who are u?
get a life pls,no need to do this kind of brainless and childish thing
if u feel u are uncomfortable to see me on school or view my fb
u can just exit it ,i beg u go away
i am nt welcome any bitch gang come and view my blog!
anggerik bastard fuck off!

我發覺。。

看回自己的部落格
發覺原來最近都有很多不開心的post
也很少來部落格了。。。
可能只有自己知道什麼原因
以前不論開心還是不開心
都回來部落格把開心的跟大家分享
把不開心的在這這裡發洩
發覺自己滿滿的忽略了部落格
忘記了各位博友的存在
對不起哦
我會多回來
多把自己的心情寫上來
不論開心的，不開心的
都會來這里分享

...

i duwan to say anything
i duwan to explain much...
is crying.......
not in a good mood and gastric!

Hurt badly ='(

i tell myself,that is the last time
that is just a joke
that is not important for me
but failed...
yup I'm in a relationship
but what i can say is
I ain't sweet with my boyf*
I ain't blissful
he is always the one not beside me when i need him
he is always the one who give me a dumb
he is always the one who not even let me have some caring feel
NOT even come and fetch me when i need transport
and give me the excuse that he busy working,wan i sit taxi also cannot let guy fetch
my boyfriend is a guy who don't know to coax his girlfriend
my boyfriend is the one who always think that money and branded can let me satisfied
He don't know i need his care
He don't I need advise from him
He don't know i am disappointed with him
He don't I am ready to give up this relationship
He don't know when i Had a bad temper is because i am too tired of my school life
He don't know I had a bad temper is because the way he talk with and the way he treat me
He don't know I give vent to him is because I need his care
I don't know what should i do anymore
i had try my best to be a good girlfriend
but No one will appreciate
i wait u 1 and a half year d
i am too tired for this...
so,Do u think is the time to let it go
we ain't sweet couple!
I am totally down ='(

我自己

总有一些人，他们看上去整天都很开心，嘻嘻哈哈的，没有

烦 恼，像个小孩，他们会说玩是我最大的乐趣，我很喜欢玩， 我什么都会玩人多的时候他们脸上总挂着笑容，好多人都会 羡慕他们，然而这其实是他们最悲哀的地方，他们不想让别 人看到自己难过的一面，更没有能力一个人独处，因为当夜 深人静的时候，他不知道一个人会发生什么事，坐在窗前冥想走 过的点滴，會忽然地大哭，忽然的想旅行
他们貌似很坚强，因为在别人看来，他们什么事都能微笑着

去 面对，但事实上他们长着世界上最脆弱的心灵，只是长期的 伪装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。 他们其实非常孤独，虽然看到他们时都是在跟一群人谈天说地，那是因为他们实在不能承受一个人时的折磨！
他们向往放纵自由的生活，却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的

一 个方向活着，很累很累，却仍是心甘情愿。离自己的梦境越 来越来远，不得不面对从未想过的争夺和复杂，恐慌、不知 所措。只有面对最信赖的人时，才会卸下盔甲，委屈的流下 眼泪。因为在他们心里，笑就是开心，哭就是难过，接近就 是喜欢，远离就是讨厌。但其实不是，他们明白了，心好伤， 眼泪就没忍住。哭过之后，笑笑得擦干眼泪，说，没关系，我可 以做的很好的。
他们好像无所不能，好像总是不会有烦恼，好像什么问题都

能 轻而易举的解决，总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前，笑嘻 嘻的逗着笑。而面对自己的问题，他们却茫然无措，面对自 己的悲伤，他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越 大。

他们的想法非常简单，说出来的就是心里所想的，肚子里不

会 拐七道八道的小弯，无心的话可能会引起别人的误解。所以， 请别记恨他们，他们从不愿伤害谁，小小的错误就能让他们懊悔 很久。

他们其实非常单纯，甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑他也会一辈子 记得你的好，因此他们的世界观其实也很简单，他们很容易 受蛊惑 ，请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情，因为一旦伤害了，那就将永 远弥补不回来！

我，其實就那麼的簡單
又有誰會知道？
又有誰能了解我？


吵架6個月了
可能大家真的對對方的誤解太深了。。
才使到這個賤女人的介入
我們的友情，就是那麼的經不起考驗
真心對你好的人你不知道
你也不了解
而那些虛偽的小人，你卻相信的10足
我不怪你
因為我了解你
我知道你的性格
我也不干擾你
或許你很享受你現在的生活。。

...bad luck

hey blogger,i am back to update my blog
It's having exam last 3 week long...
recently is busying about my classtrip a trip to genting at 30th of April.
I am the one who handle all the thing,the hotel,the breakfast,the steamboat and so on la
damn tired!except the trip,I am also preparing for our class T-shirt.
this is not an easy job for me as I am never learn anything about shirt design,it's difficult to have an good design
Another thing about this two week is all about sick...
I am having sore throat,throatache,stomachache and headache on last week,it takes 3 days to recover
after that,i got big flu and high fever for this week,while having physic and chemistry paper
such a big sigh~

it's having some problem between classmate about the genting trip
i dun think that i got any problem on that
kong pui yee,fb post i am nt talking about u
u can either choose to go or not
is doesn't matter for us
i can't force u to go with us
if u're nt satisfy with our fee and our trip
that's all

its moody and sick

i realize u changed recently...
u din even care me recently..
is it my illusion??
my wrong impression?
i feel sad with our interaction..
what can i do?
what points to continue?
:(

boring..

its 6.52 am nw
OMG
just now wake up at 2 something
and i think i can't fall slept back at all..
nowadays lazy to blog
lazy to update
and i saw someone blog just now
just simply have a look
but i am still hate her like before..
have an update here
its the picture for me and biibii
hate biibii's hair now,so looooooooooong,but i like this pic^^
planning to have an outing tomorrow,anyone?

1st anniversary ♥

雖然最近真的發生很多事情
很多問題也慢慢浮現了
也在一周年的前幾天吵了很多場大架
最后，還是慶祝了

今天是白色情人節，也是我跟比比的一周年
原本說好要去sabah和馬六甲旅行的
哪里知道去不成了
無端端有事情做。。
就，其實很失望
這個一周年過得很簡單
早上8點多出發
打寶貝女兒chucky和becky
去1u central park 街街
然后玩到1個小時那樣
帶他們去pet safari
shopping
買了新的leash給becky
然后就在車上聊天
大概3點多那樣
在車上聊了很多東西
把問題攤出來講了。。
發現了，其實我就是不想面對這些問題
曾經一度想下車自己走路回家。。
解決了很多問題
心結也打開了。。
開心了一點點
就這樣
我做了小muffin還有一個scrapbook給比比
記載我們這一年發生了什么東西還有我的wishlist
比比拿到小muffin回家的時候
他媽媽爸爸要吃
比比就給他們試試咯
還以為他們會說不好吃。。
哈哈
可是出乎我的意料
比比的爸爸媽媽竟然喜歡
停了真的很開心
很有滿足感。。
我希望接下來的日子，我還有機會被他們稱贊
對我來說，他們的稱贊就是我的動力 ♥

in a complicated relationship

yup
in a complicated relationship
i am here to annouce
i am in a complicated relationship!!!!
i dissapointed
i feel hurt
i feel down
i feel alone
i feel i am nt willing to wait it anymore
i am nt willing to bear it anymore
just leave me alone
i need a break!

cry badly

不想再哭了
很累了
很疲倦
第一次哭到那么辛苦
有點像斷氣的感覺
第一次有種永遠想消失在這里的感覺
我當不起這個責任
付不起我答應這個條件的代價
我沒有了那么多的友誼
你給回我？
誰來賠償給我
淚水像豆大的水珠一樣不停地落下來
從剛才到現在。。沒有停過
第一次
因為感情的事情被媽媽發現我哭了
第一次，你那么不喜歡他他都會幫你說好話
第一次，心如刀割的感覺
第一次，不想再被你擺布了
第一次，下定決心，不接你電話了
還以為把心里的東西告訴你以后
心情會變得更好
哪里知道反而越高越糟
把你的心情都搞砸了
想脫離
想回到剛剛開始的時候
那么的開心
那么的自由。。。
我們都沒錯，只是不適合。。

i am here to update my blog

相识=>相知=>相惜=>相爱=>婚姻=>承担。
this is what my BC teacher told us while having BC class today
i believe that
this is truth
every couple is start from friend maybe
and then know each other,treasure each other,love each other
then only marry if u gt Affordability
biibii,I hope that we might did that too

recently weather is freaking hot!!
and sometime really don't feel want went to school
i think i am fear of attending to school
i love my school life
i love my classmate
they bring me joy when i am sad,when i am down
but i hate exam
i hate those subject
really don't feel wan to continue study
is it this is a kind of sense of self-degradation
somebody help me?
somebody can stand in me?

very suffer
looking for someone to talk
looking for a chance to relax
looking for a chance to travel

is having too many problem
seriously moody :(
×listening 帶我走-rainie yong

" Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water

Excited !!!And thanks to my Hubby!!!

yup
its the time i am here to annouce that i get The coach bag frm hubby d
thank you so much
and i do really love it so much
Hubby
i am so happy when i get this bag
wan to say billion thank you to you
you spent too much on me d
its time to save some money for our travel
right?
10 more day is our 1st anniversary d
i hope i can sit at ur car,eating anywhere at melaka with u and chucky
Can i??
I HOPE SO!!^^

Nobody can support me??

這幾個月的心情真的很低落
我不知道為什么
不知道是因為你，還是因為什么
今天7點早上才睡
睡沒有幾個鐘就起身了
我也不懂為什么
心里突人間有很多感覺交叉著
也不知道要怎樣表達出來
我不明白很多東西
我不明白為什么你那么自私
不能來找我
還一點自由都給不到我
難道我每天困在家里，你真的會比較開心嗎？
我可以很老實地說
我真的過得很不開心
每次，你都勸我支持下去
告訴我等到的就是我的
你現在，連最基本的見面你都做不到
那我還可以奢望什么在你的身上？
我知道你有苦衷
我知道你也不是好過
為什么事情發生了那么久
你做到的，是埋怨我的媽媽
而不是去檢討我們錯在哪里
事情為什么會發到這樣？
為什么你犯的錯我們要一起承擔？
而我們犯的錯你卻要我一個人承擔
你不覺得你很自私嗎？
我問我自己
為什么我跟你一起以后
我中罵的機會變高了
是我自己拿來的？
還有14天就是我們的一周年了
如果你不能來找我，我也不會勉強
就算你來了
還是一樣沒有實現你對我的諾言
我等你一年了
這就是我得到的東西
我做錯了，我受傷了，我失敗了
誰來扶持我？
沒有一個！
I didn't blame u
I wish to have one trip with u
u didn't give me
I wish to see u once per month
u can't do it
I wish to know when u can give me a confirm answer
u can't give me
U can't do anything that proof u not lie me
even a picture
a person
a talks
a reason
or whatever
nothing u going to proof
You can't even trust me even though i proof the thing
so,what should i trust u?

personality tests,fucking accurate

Dear Mika Law, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are intelligent
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Honest
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Sweet
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are friendly to everybody
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't like conflict
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Because you're so cheerful
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Fun people are naturally attracted to you
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Like to talk to you
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are a true romantic
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : When you are in love
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will do anything
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Everything to keep your love true
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person
The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So you will find yourself with plenty of dates
Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is less important than the real world out there
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Away from the classroom
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Deep inside you want to start working
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Earning money
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Living on your own
The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You need to choose something
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Go for it to be happy
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Achieve success
How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous
What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of things that you cannot control
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel

the feel..

well
i am coming back to update my blog
it has been a long time not updating my blog
i don't feel wanna update and record the sad things here again
its too many in our relationship

i am just here to realize my feeling
and not to finding argue with u
we have been together for 343 days
and what u can give me is just 3 days
my dear,i can count it in one hand
344 is the one of the number i like
and u can't even to spend this day with me
Do u know
i am so sad for it?
I've been give u many chance
Many...not just once
u didn't fulfill your promise Once
u ffk and giving me disappointed every time
i am not to complaint the everything for u
just,wan to let u know
I've been wait u for 340 days
Ya,u try your best to fulfill your promise
you try your best to advice your dad
and you know,i try my best to let my friend my parents know you're the best
but u didn't even done what i told them
I told them that my Bf love me much
I told them my bf less meet me is because busying work but not his dad not allow
I told them I didn't regret to choose u
I told my mum that you not even lie me
I told my mum,No matter what happen,I know u got difficulties
and Now,i don't feel wan to keep lying already
can you please
prove me
and prove my friend something?
U wan face
and I wan too
ask yourself
which time u giving me face
which time when I'm nt insult u infront my friend and u say i did
Which time i am nt support u the most
God,tell me please...