boring..

its 6.52 am nw
OMG
just now wake up at 2 something
and i think i can't fall slept back at all..
nowadays lazy to blog
lazy to update
and i saw someone blog just now
just simply have a look
but i am still hate her like before..
have an update here
its the picture for me and biibii
hate biibii's hair now,so looooooooooong,but i like this pic^^
planning to have an outing tomorrow,anyone?

1st anniversary ♥

雖然最近真的發生很多事情
很多問題也慢慢浮現了
也在一周年的前幾天吵了很多場大架
最后，還是慶祝了

今天是白色情人節，也是我跟比比的一周年
原本說好要去sabah和馬六甲旅行的
哪里知道去不成了
無端端有事情做。。
就，其實很失望
這個一周年過得很簡單
早上8點多出發
打寶貝女兒chucky和becky
去1u central park 街街
然后玩到1個小時那樣
帶他們去pet safari
shopping
買了新的leash給becky
然后就在車上聊天
大概3點多那樣
在車上聊了很多東西
把問題攤出來講了。。
發現了，其實我就是不想面對這些問題
曾經一度想下車自己走路回家。。
解決了很多問題
心結也打開了。。
開心了一點點
就這樣
我做了小muffin還有一個scrapbook給比比
記載我們這一年發生了什么東西還有我的wishlist
比比拿到小muffin回家的時候
他媽媽爸爸要吃
比比就給他們試試咯
還以為他們會說不好吃。。
哈哈
可是出乎我的意料
比比的爸爸媽媽竟然喜歡
停了真的很開心
很有滿足感。。
我希望接下來的日子，我還有機會被他們稱贊
對我來說，他們的稱贊就是我的動力 ♥

in a complicated relationship

yup
in a complicated relationship
i am here to annouce
i am in a complicated relationship!!!!
i dissapointed
i feel hurt
i feel down
i feel alone
i feel i am nt willing to wait it anymore
i am nt willing to bear it anymore
just leave me alone
i need a break!

cry badly

不想再哭了
很累了
很疲倦
第一次哭到那么辛苦
有點像斷氣的感覺
第一次有種永遠想消失在這里的感覺
我當不起這個責任
付不起我答應這個條件的代價
我沒有了那么多的友誼
你給回我？
誰來賠償給我
淚水像豆大的水珠一樣不停地落下來
從剛才到現在。。沒有停過
第一次
因為感情的事情被媽媽發現我哭了
第一次，你那么不喜歡他他都會幫你說好話
第一次，心如刀割的感覺
第一次，不想再被你擺布了
第一次，下定決心，不接你電話了
還以為把心里的東西告訴你以后
心情會變得更好
哪里知道反而越高越糟
把你的心情都搞砸了
想脫離
想回到剛剛開始的時候
那么的開心
那么的自由。。。
我們都沒錯，只是不適合。。

i am here to update my blog

相识=>相知=>相惜=>相爱=>婚姻=>承担。
this is what my BC teacher told us while having BC class today
i believe that
this is truth
every couple is start from friend maybe
and then know each other,treasure each other,love each other
then only marry if u gt Affordability
biibii,I hope that we might did that too

recently weather is freaking hot!!
and sometime really don't feel want went to school
i think i am fear of attending to school
i love my school life
i love my classmate
they bring me joy when i am sad,when i am down
but i hate exam
i hate those subject
really don't feel wan to continue study
is it this is a kind of sense of self-degradation
somebody help me?
somebody can stand in me?

very suffer
looking for someone to talk
looking for a chance to relax
looking for a chance to travel

is having too many problem
seriously moody :(
×listening 帶我走-rainie yong

" Heavy hearts, like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water

Excited !!!And thanks to my Hubby!!!

yup
its the time i am here to annouce that i get The coach bag frm hubby d
thank you so much
and i do really love it so much
Hubby
i am so happy when i get this bag
wan to say billion thank you to you
you spent too much on me d
its time to save some money for our travel
right?
10 more day is our 1st anniversary d
i hope i can sit at ur car,eating anywhere at melaka with u and chucky
Can i??
I HOPE SO!!^^

Nobody can support me??

這幾個月的心情真的很低落
我不知道為什么
不知道是因為你，還是因為什么
今天7點早上才睡
睡沒有幾個鐘就起身了
我也不懂為什么
心里突人間有很多感覺交叉著
也不知道要怎樣表達出來
我不明白很多東西
我不明白為什么你那么自私
不能來找我
還一點自由都給不到我
難道我每天困在家里，你真的會比較開心嗎？
我可以很老實地說
我真的過得很不開心
每次，你都勸我支持下去
告訴我等到的就是我的
你現在，連最基本的見面你都做不到
那我還可以奢望什么在你的身上？
我知道你有苦衷
我知道你也不是好過
為什么事情發生了那么久
你做到的，是埋怨我的媽媽
而不是去檢討我們錯在哪里
事情為什么會發到這樣？
為什么你犯的錯我們要一起承擔？
而我們犯的錯你卻要我一個人承擔
你不覺得你很自私嗎？
我問我自己
為什么我跟你一起以后
我中罵的機會變高了
是我自己拿來的？
還有14天就是我們的一周年了
如果你不能來找我，我也不會勉強
就算你來了
還是一樣沒有實現你對我的諾言
我等你一年了
這就是我得到的東西
我做錯了，我受傷了，我失敗了
誰來扶持我？
沒有一個！
I didn't blame u
I wish to have one trip with u
u didn't give me
I wish to see u once per month
u can't do it
I wish to know when u can give me a confirm answer
u can't give me
U can't do anything that proof u not lie me
even a picture
a person
a talks
a reason
or whatever
nothing u going to proof
You can't even trust me even though i proof the thing
so,what should i trust u?

personality tests,fucking accurate

Dear Mika Law, below are your Personality Tests result:
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are intelligent
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Honest
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Sweet
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are friendly to everybody
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't like conflict
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Because you're so cheerful
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Fun people are naturally attracted to you
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Like to talk to you
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are a true romantic
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : When you are in love
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will do anything
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Everything to keep your love true
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person
The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : So you will find yourself with plenty of dates
Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is less important than the real world out there
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Away from the classroom
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Deep inside you want to start working
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Earning money
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Living on your own
The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You need to choose something
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Go for it to be happy
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Achieve success
How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous
What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of things that you cannot control
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel

the feel..

well
i am coming back to update my blog
it has been a long time not updating my blog
i don't feel wanna update and record the sad things here again
its too many in our relationship

i am just here to realize my feeling
and not to finding argue with u
we have been together for 343 days
and what u can give me is just 3 days
my dear,i can count it in one hand
344 is the one of the number i like
and u can't even to spend this day with me
Do u know
i am so sad for it?
I've been give u many chance
Many...not just once
u didn't fulfill your promise Once
u ffk and giving me disappointed every time
i am not to complaint the everything for u
just,wan to let u know
I've been wait u for 340 days
Ya,u try your best to fulfill your promise
you try your best to advice your dad
and you know,i try my best to let my friend my parents know you're the best
but u didn't even done what i told them
I told them that my Bf love me much
I told them my bf less meet me is because busying work but not his dad not allow
I told them I didn't regret to choose u
I told my mum that you not even lie me
I told my mum,No matter what happen,I know u got difficulties
and Now,i don't feel wan to keep lying already
can you please
prove me
and prove my friend something?
U wan face
and I wan too
ask yourself
which time u giving me face
which time when I'm nt insult u infront my friend and u say i did
Which time i am nt support u the most
God,tell me please...

My kaizai~Marcus

是可愛的咯
我的干兒子
Marcus劉孝東
是我的寶貝姐妹的孩子
可愛可愛
好想他呢
說到這天都火
前面的就不說
就說要去看baby的時候和ashley，snowyi
打德士去
就從kepong去sg.buloh
就截了一輛德士，是新車來的
上了車
看到有bible和十字架之類的東西，就想到，是基督教徒，應該沒怎樣
那天就下大雨
上到desa那個橋的時候
死人taxi一直猛踩油
怕死那個錢很少將子咯
我們就已經很不爽了
就問他車是不是壞了
然后他就用很有骨的語氣答我們說是咯，壞了，又怎樣！
聽到我真的很火咯
可是那天真的很多東西發生
真的很沒心情罵人
過后去到sg。buloh的時候
就有少少延髓€就有少少淹水
死人taxi佬又玩野
叫我們這里下車
那時火真的起了咯
真想干他媽媽夠夠力
他叫我們給100塊
我直接吊他了，說不要，50都不給
過后死taxi佬很不爽
就說不要給就丟我們下車
我就騙他咯，哄大的
說要我們下車也可以啦
如果你不要照meter算
我可以call我爸爸的，沒關系，我爸爸在JPJ做官員的
死taxi佬就開始怕了
就說跟你們玩而已嘛
我哪里敢不跟meter收錢
我再吊他啦
玩，玩你媽媽
心情不好還要惹我
還想騙我們的錢
當我們10歲啊
真的是不爽
吊他媽的死taxi佬
下衰我們christian！！！

valentine又到了
今年有很多很想得到的東西
可是直覺跟我說是不可能了
還是算了吧。。

？

回憶過去
那傻傻的我
天真的聽別人說
你的男朋友帶你回去見家長就證明他很重視你
證明他肯在家人面前給你一個見證
感情會比較穩定
比較長久
這。。。好象都不對吧
以前的男友都會在他們的生日時帶我回家
跟他的家人一起慶祝
可是也沒見得長久
最后也是分手收場

我不在對比比的生日有什么不甘心或不愿了
我覺得做好自己的本分就好了
這幾個星期都因為在煩這個而很沒心情
我想
我錯了吧
算了
平凡過了就算

Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart.

当一切都回不去了，当我决定要走，你才明白冷落了我，
我要的不多，可你都没给够，哪怕一个温柔的相拥，
你都沒給我
可這对我来讲，都是幸福的。
曾幾何時我是幸福過的
我沒有發言自由
沒有逛街自由
沒有花錢自由
沒有做決定的自由
什么都沒有
什么都掌握在你的手
我快要瘋了！！！！！！！！！！！！！
Never say goodbye when you still want to try, never give up when you still feel you can take it, never say you don’t love that person anymore when you can’t let go.
每次都對自己說這句
每次都很后悔說過
我會把這句格言忘了
不再被她擺布
或許
真的應該看回以前的我
時時想起
幸福并不是依存于你是什么人或拥有什么，它只取决于你想的是什么？
我想要的是什么
相信熟悉我的人都知道
我不多說
我心里有數

biibii

biibii's birthday is coming soon
its 15th of Jan
he planning to out for dinner
bt i dun hope so
this is his 21st birthday
i hope biibii can celebrate v fren and family
bt he dun think so
aiys
nw i am confusing
weather my decision is wrong???
if for mw
I hope he can celebrate at house
bt for him
he hope tat can celebrate with me outside
aiys
i duno la
this is his birthday
its his turn to make a decision
bt nt me
hope everything is going well soon
hope everything will b ok soon

p/s:i am just for his own good
bt he say i pandang
hw sad am i u noe?
sigh
nt to plan anymore

no topic

we're nt in the same way anymore
start frm today 23.20pm
u can start judge me
u can start go ahead to trust other
u can stat scold me
u can start to do ur everything
i wnt fan u anymore
i wnt gv u trouble anymore
i wnt let u hua yi anyore
tats ll

recently..

這幾天回到家后心情都好糟
我也不知道怎么形容
有時真的好羨慕那些沒記憶的人
忘記所有的事
從新開始
我也希望像他們一樣
最近這幾天發生了很多事
認識我的人都知道
我是一個很潑辣的女生
往往只有我罵人
而不是人罵我
就在拜一的那天
跟那個傻海rosely吵架了
請原諒我用那么粗俗的語言來形容他
這個R auntie，他是我RL工作那里老板的‘阿姨’
說真的，剛剛認識她的時候就不是很喜歡他的性格了
輸不起的個性
真的很惹本小姐生氣
我最看不起那種仗著自己是‘皇親國戚’在那邊'雅文牙舞’的人了
最看不起那些一把年紀了還不會想的‘老人家’
o！先說好，如果你要我尊重你，麻煩你先尊重我
對你這種人，我在我的字典查不到尊重兩個字
事情是這樣的
那天我就跟那個R auntie 工作
說好先
他沒資格當我們RL的員工
他是來頂包的
他這人也很厲害
抽屜跌下來就是我要絆他跌倒，弄傷他的
叫他收衣服就是沒禮貌
他出去吃飯就可以
我出去就不可以
這也都算了
明明一路來都是我在cashier的
原來我收錢都有錯
原來我玩剪刀都有錯
他這人心機太重了吧
真的很惹人討厭
說我不配當一個christian，那他配什么？
死貪錢婆
照一下鏡子
你什么死人樣
吧殺賣豬肉的uncle都嫌你了
datuk還會要你？
省省啦你
我告訴你
ROSELY YAP
現在你就是惹火本小姐了
我最不喜歡人家冤枉我的
而你全部都做到足
我不會給你有好日子的
你等著瞧
我再也不會大人不計小人過了
對你這種所謂沒腦的小人
我不會客氣的

the 1st day

this is the 1st day tat i cry on 2010
tats a big crash for me
BIG BIG BIG
what is call friend actually?
this is another time i get cheat by friend
its a uncountable times tat i get cheat by friend
i hate them
ya i know
friends are important in my life
but some of them really piss me off
although i give a lot help to them they also can't feel it
its okay
never mind,i don't care
but how u treat me?
is it i owe u?
i din owe u at all,i lend u a hand
but what i get the end?
say i expert lie,expert act
OKAY!!
now i only know how u look at me
this is the second time already
dun give other a good reason that u wan give me rest or wat
last 2 year u also say u ask me rest ya
rest until finish work also haven't rest finish
i don't need rest actually
u need the rest more
I think many way to let your boutique more Business
not for my commission
is for your money you know?
i don't hope to see my fren everyday in a fake good mood
everyday having a fake smile
I noe that u're worrying about the stock
I noe that u're nt happy actually
I noe that u really alot thing to bother
please Do not take your business as a joke
Your company is Benevolent Society?
anyone who is lost her job or looking for work can work at there
u as a boutique boss
u can complain how's people's staff wearing
but can u have a eye on yours?
customer depends on your shirt and your staff to give u the confidence mark
this is the way u say u wan ur company better?
that's impossible!!
u regard ppl as friend
bt hw ur good fren J talk infront ppl?
is who telling me tat dun let J noe tat u are P..
Is who telling me tat J's mouth is suck
at the end who is telling people?
can u behave urself?
and the last
i won't go bck to work edi
I swear,this is the 2nd time i gv u the chance
and this is the last time
no more!!!

Happy new year!!!

新的一年
新的希望
新的祝福
新的開始
真希望2010年我跟比比會減少摩擦，減少吵架
多點見面
我真的好想比比
em
怎么說
這一年不開心的東西還真的是多過開心的
我好像也變了不少
先謝謝比比在2009年買了兩只小寶貝給我
雖然偶爾帶給我不少麻煩
但我很樂意^^
用了比比很多錢
有點過意不去的感覺
比，謝謝你
我愛你!

再來就是姐妹了
trancy,ashley，xiaoyyu，milk,jessic,pancy
這年大家的摩擦增加了不少
希望你們明白
大家都在成長，很多種因素真的可能會讓大家吵架
我知道有些地方我真的是做錯了
真的是需要改
請給我一些時間
大家都不想吵架的
為何我們不能像之前那樣開開心心的相處
開開心心的去喝茶？
說話不要再帶刺了好嗎？
不是說好要當姐妹的嗎？
我希望我們真的能友誼萬歲
我愛你們
mwak！

Shooting With my 3 Lovely Daughter

2day wake up at 7 o clock morning,

after clean their wee and poo,finish feeding

i go bath and prepare all the thing

bcz 2day having a shooting v my 3 lovely daughterafter

finish my housework

heading to 1u Central park with my bro with my dad's car

i react there almost 9.15and i think i am late

i am so sorry

haha,

everyone is waiting for me

after talk sumthg v husky Gathering frenthn

start shooting

susu is a famous hyperactive Baby

anyone who saw her b4 must remember her barkingand her Hyperactive,

bt today she seem like guai gua lui,

listen to Mummy comment and guai guai gv photographer take pic

really dai sek!!

I bring Chucky,Becky and Susu to shooting

and the 1st shooting i just start v my Susu and Becky,

Chucky is borrow by other model

Chucky,mummy feel proud of U

everyone is praising tat Chucky is a super model,

and a cute little fellow,

after the 1st session shooting

i go chit chat v husky gathering member

i saw OSCAR and also Joe and Mike

thy really so nice and so strong

Ya!!forget abt Nana

Nana is nice with her blue eye!

OMG,i like it so much

finish my shooting and gathering almost 12 o'clock,
Susu and Becky is Dirty after plying and running around,

i bring Thm to ivan new shop,DOGOYA

its new opeing

located behind paparich kepong metro prima

Nice service thy have

and please ya~~~intro ur fren to Dogoya too O

if u say u're Mika fren,u will get 10% extra discount

hahaha

Mummy cuming bck frm thailand tonight~

miss her so much!!!

what a nice day and a tired shooting day

Susu,Chucky,BeckyMummy proud of u all

nice pose,and u all so obediance today

mummy ♥ you all so much~

I think daddy too~~

Random

this few day get my toy poodle edii
think my wishlist need to delete 1 more edi
i am so happy and so excited too~
thx biibii...
這幾天都在工作
兩個小瓜在家也沒人幫我看，
求人真的不簡單

要我的弟妹幫忙，
真的還難過求別人
那天就因為husky baby becky在房間沒人陪它，
就一直哭
亂吠。。
聽到都心疼
回來的時候中爸爸罵
心情還真的不是很好
真不想這事情會發生

這幾天也想往日一樣
每次都跟比比吵架為為什么每天都在吵呢？
什么大家都么改進?
我希望接下來也不會這樣了
大家在吵架的過程往往都會說出很多很hurt的話
其實都很不好受

馬六甲的trip取消了。。
因为没有一间有房间，
今年的圣誕節就在家里過了
有點出乎意料,
雖然很失望，可是也真的沒辦法。。我習慣

yes!what a happy day~

拿到我的哈士奇寶貝了
哈哈哈哈哈哈
終于買到我和比比的目標husky
是深藍色的眼睛的哦
新女兒取名字叫becky
希望它可以健健康康的成長
買這只狗狗用了比比不少錢
雖然很開心，可是也很心疼
比比
對不起哦
謝謝你買一只哈士奇狗狗還有toy poodle 狗狗給我
接下來的星期5就可以拿到我們的toy poodle baby chucky了
好期待
比比
謝謝你
愛死你了～mwakx